I’m going
to walk away from any additional anxieties for the time being and focus on the
neuroses I already have. Lord knows I have enough troubling me
without adding to the laundry list of fears that are causing me to lose
sleep. I keep reminding myself that I get to see Alberto tomorrow
and that in itself is a small miracle. As a matter of fact the visit
only costs me $4 for parking and some gas. On our last trip to
Mexico, the airfare was $622.61 for me with an additional $77.39 for Ashley’s
ticket since they only charged me the ‘taxes’ for a child under 2 years
old. What’s interesting is if you add everything up: $622.61 +
$77.39 + $77.39 = $777.39 which I thought was a pretty auspicious number at the
time. Three and its multiples happen to be lucky for me and nine is
some numerology result I vaguely remember from several years ago.
There was
a point in my life where I spent a large portion of my waking hours taking
online tests because I had no life or friends to speak of. According
to my mom, I did not cope with the move from the city out to the suburbs very
well. She told me that I was difficult and largely unwilling to try
and make new friends which may have caused the majority of the problems I had
with kids my age throughout my school years. Well what can you
expect from an 8 year old really? Not only that, we moved two weeks
before school was out so I spent the entire summer moping around because I
couldn’t see my friends. What could possibly go wrong moving 20
miles away from the only friends you’ve ever known, and being socially
awkward? I can’t blame anyone but myself for the years that followed
and there are sometimes I wish I could go back and change everything but then
where would I be now? Sometimes it’s best not to think about it.
Today I
posted my resume on another website, www.indeed.com. My mom
recommended it from the seminar she went to about social media and networking. They
had a lot of very interesting information which has introduced me to some very
interesting websites I hadn’t ever heard about. I am just waiting
for an email to verify my account, which is taking longer than I thought it
would. I really need to start looking for a job, but as I mentioned
before I find it difficult. I know my current position is seasonal
with the end only being a month or two away, but I would feel pretty bad if I
left before the end of my time there since it would leave them in a bind. On
the other hand, being without a job is horrible and not something I want to do
again. I need to update all my job search engines and the sites I am
already using. There is work to be done and someone, somewhere out
there is looking for me to do it for them. Is anyone out there
looking for a bilingual data entry specialist with a special interest in
financial processing or something which is a step closer to accounting
oriented? Please line up, single file of course, and tell me more
about why I would be a good fit for you… I wish this was how the job
search protocol worked!
Tomorrow
I need to commit to sending the money to Noemi and Agustin. I also
need to get gas, not cheat on my diet, remember to carry cash, and pack a cute
outfit for Ashley to wear when we see her Papí. I hope that it’s not
stained by the time I go to pick her up. Who am I kidding
really? Every single last piece of clothing that travels within 100
yards of my mother-in-law’s house is manchada. I should look at
my purse in the morning and remove any contraband, like my manicure set even
though my keys would be a more formidable weapon. Ashley needs to
have a care package put together with a few toys, a snack, a drink, and maybe
some duct tape since she seems to be squirrely every single time we go
visiting. She’s the funniest little girl, but not everyone at the
jail seems to think so. That just goes to show you what they
know.
"For
a moment, nothing happened. Then, after
a second or so, nothing continued to happen.”
Douglas
Adams
Ciao
Spanish
words/phrases from this post:
Papí: Daddy
Manchada: Stained
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